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What do you see when you look at me...

Could you possibly see what I see?....

I think not...

You look past me.....

You only see the outside...

You do not see what I am...

Who I am....

I am nothingness to you...

Therefore it must be that I have nothing to be in comparison with....

We both know this is untrue....

I want to be the one you call on in the middle of the night...

The one you run to when there is no one else....

In that sense I will always be second best....

I will except this only knowing one thing....

That eventually you will see past my rough exterior....

To see the person that stands there....

Naked before you with all my disappointments and deformities....

Could you love me?....I'd like to think so....

I want you....To want me....

Incredibly as it seems.....

You are but a dream....

You do not exist....

You are not real....Never will be

You my love are my fantasy....

And in my dreams is where you shall remain...

Tell me why is that when I walk past ,your eyes leave me swifty?.....Am I sinful to look upon?.....What exactly is it that you're thinkin' anyway?

I can not believe that in this day and age people are still so stuck in their ways....and so full of themselves and what they call "perfection".

I may not be it in your eyes but, I am in my childrens'.

I am often asked what I feel others think of me and I ponder this question....I know I am not "socially acceptable" to some but,should it matter?....

I did not ask to be here,though I am.This is my time to shine and I will do it the best way I see fit to do so....

Look I am tryin' to make way just like everyone else....I am an intelligent woman,housewife,mother of three boys who I rasie to be strong minded and open to everything that could come their way.

It bothers me to think that people are still wondering as I pass them,taking my children to school if I teach them "satanic rituals"....Are these poeple for real?...

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that I am an average everyday person who just happens to have a taste for a lil more than "the norms"....

So what if I look different or I believe in something you do not.....

I thought that was what made us individuals.....

I guess some people would rather think the world can manufacture "perfection"....and conform to all that they feel is right and true....

This is something I can not do...I will not conform! I will be secure with my being...content.

I found myself intrigued by this site so I thought I would render myself for some time to spend it here.I am thus far pleased with my decision.